☝But I'm Still Here

tag urself im data and worf simultaneously 



📯(All bc of His goodNESS)📯


*turns up J-Moss playlist*
ok, no really, she's back. A 👏lot 👏better👏, in some ways. Not so faded. 👤



(hopefully less extra than this instance lol)

...Well, it's nice to be "back". Not sure what that means (or if I actually legit am? idk), but...eh, yeah. Things are changing well, in recovery phase. I have ups and downs and those days that are maddeningly in-between. But I'm mAKING prOGGrESS! So! 😀
uh, yeah, sparing the more personal info and deets, on to this past 7-day period, or

What's Been Up (This Past Week):
(told ya that title was staying hehe)

*I took a break (total and/or partial) from a lot of stuff. Certain social media, attitudes, relationships, activities, workouts (which start up next week tho bc tRIathLOn), dieting (had to re-calibrate for my current college/physiological situation),...the list goes on. It felt weird, and unnatural at times, and somewhat disassociative, but I'm glad I did it.
(also, disassociative isn't technically a word, but)

looks like salty Hannah is partially back oh boy

*I started classes (officially) - and they've gone well, all of them, so far (and I like them). It is HOT out, you guys, and I now have me hand-fan and a red umbrella to avoid entirely broiling. 🌅🔥🌂
I've made all of the connections between them, am on top of the work (and am in the process of making *memes* for all of them + the teachers)
(bc I'm horrible)

hehe dats me except the sneks should be different lengths bc my hair is wierd 

*I figured out a lotta stuff: roommate agreements (which we still need to finish writing out, oops), class locations (pretty easy thanx to Summer Start), organization of my personal belongings, clothes cycles, laundry and printing (bOTH FREE HERE YEET), the dining situation (which is nice, they'll make you what you ask for), course workloads, gym stuff -- and just sorta settling my bones onto this locale. First week or so is always a bit disembodied and hazy for me, in new places.
*attended many eventz--💃
-convocation (was half-asleep, I recall a lot of horns and singing)
-a CALS connection thingy (for Animal Science, saw some old homies and teacher ppl there)
-the theatre/craft open house (and tHE CRAFT COURSES LOOK SO COOL I WANT TO TAKE THEM ALL EVEN THO THEY COST $$$)
-an actual legit theatre *audition*, which was SO fun and informative (and which I just got an e-mail saying I got accepted to a part which awww is sad since I can't do it but oh well)
-several sand volleyball matches (something I greatly enjoy about NCSU)
-some college ministry events (still got a few I wanna check out, just sorta scouting the territory atm)
-a hip hop class (which I did super well at and enjoyed a lot)
-packapalooza (meh. got me out and about the street, saw some athlete bois I knew)
-a bunch of other stuff I'm prolly forgetting
-and beff's bday dinner, which was super nice 😊

*I met/connected w/ a LOTTA ppl (summer start peeps, ministry friends, normal comrades, novel acquaintances). Which was nice.
*Also, I ran into a lot of objects/fell over a lot?? Not sure if just another growth spurt, or me being... ""active"". No injuries, thanxfully 😜

*takes break to stuff smol powdered donut in face*
mphrmf, where wuz I? Oh yes, today. As in Sunday:
I woke up in a v warm building (my dorm situation was getting the AC fixed, thankfully it's back on now), had a nice bit of family communications over a tasty brekky, got to local campus in time 4 meeting w/ the church body (reALLY GLAD I DID), got a ride back to campus w/ a nice person, got lost in re-reading Count of Monte Christo, consumed lunch, went and babysat my fave halfrican kiddos for a couple hours (ate waffles, made colored putty off the internet, talked, and looked at animal fail vids), came back, and am currently chilling/writing this post/planning. Also eating a bunch of supremely ripe kiwis I stole from home. 👅

...and, with that, we're on to the (long-spurned)
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!🌟Weekly Segments!🌟: 

Things I’d Like But (Probably) Can’t Have (Yet):
...Yet another swimsuit. Thoughts?? I think this one might be The One! *waves hands*

talking about SWIMSUITS, not GUYS, ya sillies 😏

Brain Fruit:
Had a fun little idea for a Halloween costume: a little white ghost en pointe. Yeah, just a cut-out white sheet, w/ pointe capabilities so I could...float along at points. 👻 It could be fun and kinda cool, maybe?...


Mewsiks: 
A nEW peNTATONIX sONg I hAVEN'T heARD?!?!?!? wHATTT?!?!?
...after some digging, found a version on Soundcloud. "To The River", by Pentatonix.
https://soundcloud.com/christine-meadows-3/pentatonix-to-the-river
🎵🎶

Scripture: 



Somethin Oo Occured:
After a lot of research, some thought, and a little bit of silliness, I've started toying with the idea of starting a little ballet club here @ Le University. Nothing super crazy -- maybe have several different class options (Medium-level technique, pointe, choreography, and stretching), probably getting space for two days/week. It might be cool, actually. 💭


Lit Bit: 


fitzy ftw

Gimme a Visual:
Kinda maybe fallen in love with "The Sad Ghost Club" comics.

I resonate a lot with...well, a ghost, in this sense. It's kinda odd, and kinda hard to explain.

I greatly appreciate/enjoy these little snippets, though. They're good reminders as well.


Is That Really Funny?:
hello dankness my old fraind

DED
😂😂😂😂😂

Artsy Larksey:
pRETTY PRETTY FANTASY WORLD OOH PRIDDY 💓


Ugh:

I should be nice

I should be sweet

and not so petty


but if

I see

ONE MORE COLLEGE GIRL

WEARING THIS

OR THIS

OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT

OR SOMETHING LIKE THESE

OR T H E S E


--TO HER 18-AND-OLDER CLUB PARTY WITH HER GROUP OF IDENTICAL FRIANDS--
😑😑
I just--hMMMMM
😑
(ok)
😑
(it's alright I'm cool)
😑
(just)
(tHERE's 35000 PEOPLE HERE LADIES IS THIS ALL WE WEAR OUT)

I can't ok I'm done here a meme 4 ur troubles

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...Well, here comes a new, full week. Off to the races we go. 

This missie here hasta go do her bedtime routine, prep for a good, filled-up week, and head 2 bed (as well as have maybe a bit of entertainment). Glad to have made a proper post (and more importantly, to be in a place where I feel up to/ready for such).



(also, wow, quite the yellow aesthetic I got goin' on here smh)



hasta luego -- 
☝
🌹~hew